Part of my Journey

It's been awhile since I have posted anything, not because I have nothing to share but rather because I haven't had to motivation to share it.

After much contemplation this evening, I've decided it is time to share. It is time for me to invite you all on this journey with me; rather with us, as this is very much a journey for both my husband and I. Almost 3 weeks ago, I received a phone call from my OB/GYN letting me know that my blood work came back a little abnormal. My hormone levels were quite high, and they wanted me to have a CT scan to ensure my adrenal glands were working appropriately.

Cut to last Monday, I get the word that while my adrenal glands are top notch, I have 11 cysts on my ovaries. Combine that with my high insulin levels, irregular periods, fatigue, and high hormone levels and you have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). At first, I was relieved because that is definitely treatable. Then, they started talking about conception problems Berry and I could face. Suddenly the conversation went from cysts to fertility treatments. My brain went from fine to terrified in 3 seconds. All it took was for the phrase "potential infertility" to be mentioned once, and panic immediately overcame me. 

I'm waiting for another phone call from my doctor. A phone call to tell me the options Berry and I have for the future. In the mean time, we're doing what we can to help the situation ourselves. This is the part of the journey I want to share with you. We need your help. Being healthy isn't something Berry and I have found easy. For me, it's a lifetime of unhealthy habits that I have to break. For Berry, it's a perpetual sweet tooth and a love of convenience. Now, however, I feel we have no choice. All my life I've waited for the motivation I needed to get healthy and now I have it.

If Berry and I are to ever have any little McWhorters, I have to get healthy. The journey starts now. We've already begun to buy organic. Working out is starting to happen more and more. Every time I think of cheating, I visualize a little hand holding mine or Berry rocking our little girl to sleep. All of these things are desires of my heart, but they are impossible in the body I have. 

This blog will hopefully be my way of staying accountable. Knowing my friends and family are checking this to see progress adds a little fuel to the fire. Here's to the journey, right?